Earlier this afternoon I read an e-mail from a sophomore at Yale.
“I’ve always been a good student and I know that I’m smart and capable, but lately I’ve been having such a hard time,” she began.
“I’m having trouble completing assignments, even though I have sufficient time. I avoid seeking out help, preferring instead to just freak out alone in my room.”
This student recognized her trouble as deep procrastination — the exceedingly common student affliction of losing the will to work.
While responding to her message, I had an interesting realization: deep procrastination, though scary, represents something important and perhaps even exciting. It marks that key transition where the momentum of “this is what you need to do” — the momentum that carried you through high school and into college — begins to wane, leaving you to discover a new source of propulsion — not just new, but also more durable and more personal.
It’s important to side step the self-help cliches in this situation. It’s unlikely that you’ll unearth a burning life’s mission hidden conveniently just below the surface of your psyche. What you seek is more fundamental: an acceptance that doing things well is hard, and always will be, and that you need to spend more time than you thought was necessary deciding which such hard things gain rights to your attention.
None of this is easy. All of it is exciting.
With all of this in mind, I had no magical solution to offer this worried sophomore. I could only suggest that she take a step back and reduce the frantic Yale pace, maybe for just one semester, leaving space for her new propulsion to build a head of steam.
I’ve seen this happen to so many in college, including my fiancee. She was right in the middle of this when I met her and boy, was she crazy!
Haha. This is so…coincidental. I myself being a Freshman at Yale have come to the exact same realization stated by Cal just yesterday, after I spent 5 hours reading Naruto manga rather than doing “important” work. That’s not saying the work isn’t important, but is it really necessary to have myself live without sufficient food and sleep to get a letter grade higher on a paper or a test? Do I really want me grades to define me as a person? I think not. But I digress. Though I didn’t think it in my head as articulately as Cal typed it, having had deep procrastination all Freshman year has now allowed me to find a new, real, self-fulfilling reason to do work for the next 3 years. I guess the quest for exactly what that reason is will be the main goal of my summer.
I can only say Amen to this post. There is clearly a positive side to trying to figure out what you should focus your energies on. Deep procrastination may be a sign that you should think about these things.
Thanks for reassuring me!
this article really hit home with me. possibly the most influential article you’ve ever written cal
thats exactly how i felt in my third year of university (in my 4th and final one now, i live in the uk)
consistent motivation throughout my life then something cracked
i would love to hear more about the new propulsion concept you speak of.
oh and i just deactivated my facebook (another major source of procrastination through pseudo communication)
Relaxation is important. Whitehead institute has a good research on that. If you haven’t, I’d recommend you to take a look at it.
When I first started struggling with deep procrastination two years ago, I remember telling my mom that I had just run out of steam. There was definitely a feeling that “something cracked,” as Sanjay said.
A few words of advice from someone who is finally coming out the other side:
1) Don’t pretend it isn’t happening. I spent an entire semester hoping my lack of motivation was just a blip and would go away soon. Yeah…
2) Don’t be afraid to take a semester or a year off. It’s impossible to get your head back together when you have the constant rain of homework, reading, tests, etc. I never took time off, and I really regret it now. I’m graduating in May, but just barely – the last year has been pretty miserable. Your parents may not understand what’s going on, but give them a try anyhow.
3) Talk to your professors. I had a tendency to just go AWOL – ending up missing class and avoiding the professor because I hadn’t done some assignment or paper. It’s better to let them know something’s going on, even if you don’t have any concrete excuse (and don’t make one up). It’ll make you feel better and make them more likely to cut you some slack.
4) Seriously, take some time off.
As someone who just spent the last 3 hours shooting zombies in L4D2 rather than doing any of 6 my astronomy or psychology labs, or even looking into those leads I need for journalism – probably 12 hours of work in total, all due tomorrow – I totally understand this post. Almost intuitively.
reminded me of this image
by DAN PERJOVSCHI.
As a college teacher, the parent of a college student, and someone who has struggled with these issues myself, I really appreciate such a thoughtful response to the problem of “deep procrastination.” Best of luck to the Yale sophomore and all who face these kinds of questions.
This reminds me why everyone need to find some escape sometimes.
I know many people like this because:
If you were stressed out, then you would not have the motivation to complete the work.
And I bet you can overcome procrastination if you plan out your daily events carefully in a calendar and have some efficient schedule, then everything is possible.
Right, Cal?
Wow. This gets me thinking. I’m going through a deep procrastination season at the end of my senior year….I can’t force myself to do work…even work I enjoy. If this is true about the “procrastination syndrome”, then I am glad I’m going through it now, so I can find that “new source of propulsion” in time to start college off well and finish well. If deep procrastination is a signal, then it needs to be paid attention to. Thanks Cal!
The problem is that you believe what you are doing is not going to make you happier in the long run. You can either try and force yourself to work towards less happiness (as you see it) which is very difficult, or you can find a long term goal you truly believe will make you happier. You will not procrastinate then. We all run towards what we truly want.
I’ve been experiencing the exact same thing for a while now and I’ll admit, I have been spending more time reading inspiring and motivating quotes than working on what I need to hoping that at least one would get me going.
Cal, thanks for the reality check.
Respectfully, no. That sort of brute-force approach (I’ll just make myself do it) isn’t going to be much help for students facing this sort of psychological issue. For the somewhat lazy but basically motivated person, yes, great advice.
Me, I’d spend 30 min planning out my day, only to end up ignoring my carefully crafted schedule and reading cracked.com for four hours. There were clearly some larger issues going on there.
@Bob: Mostly agree, except that there will still be at least some goofing off even if you do know what you want! 🙂 But then it’s more of a self-discipline/hard-focus problem.^^
This is ridiculously pertinent to my life too, as a burnt-out high school senior and a Yale prefrosh. It’s definitely been an issue in the last few months as I try to differentiate generic “senioritis” from something more complicated. I do feel as though I’ve hit a sort of brick wall because suddenly there is no clearly-defined next step. Any advice, Cal, for pre-freshman summer in terms of starting off college on the right foot?
I have to say, i am facing deep procrasination, and im so lost. Lately, i have absolutely no will to do my work, i devote scheduled time in the library to do my law and math, but time just goes by and my work is still left undone. I know i need to take a step back and figure out what im doing wrong. Before, when i had work to do, i knew it just needs to get done. there was no questioning, i knew that it was due and i had to sit down and do my homework. but now im stressed, all i seee is the work in front of me, and i feel stuck. thanks cal for helpful time management tips in your book, hopefully i will get out of this slump in time to pass my finals coming up on may 18. Good luck everyone, i wish you all the best in school!
Actually, there is a cure for procrasination.
New research shows that some people (and by people I really mean mice) perform better on cognitive tests when they’re in a high stressful situation, compared to when they do the same test under minimal stress.
Maybe it’s better for some of us to procrastinate, as we will do a better job on the task. (at least that’s what I tell myself!)
Hey Cal, I agree on the thought you have brought up. There is a huge upside to it – it gives you scope to explore and to nurture your curiosity.
I have expanded that at https://www.swaroopch.com/blog/about-deep-procrastination/
Thanks for the food for thought!
Regards,
Swaroop
Just a note, I’ve read every one of these comments and am enjoying their insight. I apologize for not responding yet — I’m juggling a few deadlines, but expect my thoughts soon.
I am RIGHT in the middle of this D:
I felt like this for much of graduate school, which lasted five years, and feel this way now in the first year of my postdoc. In theory, I love my research, but in daily practice, there’s so much slog and worry about what I will be doing in two, five, and ten years’ time. (What I do does not have a counterpart in industry, so a TT position is my only “hope.”) At least those in college have their projects neatly truncated by school terms. That said, I vividly remember the pain of crunch time. Cal–can you write more about academia? I cringe at the thought of giving up this intellectual freedom, but I hate, hate, hate worrying about whether I can hack it. Too much depends on NSF and NIH funding levels.
Cal,
I think you gave her the magical solution…
“…take a step back and reduce the frantic Yale pace, maybe for just one semester, leaving space for her new propulsion to build a head of steam.”
Life (esp as a college student, esp at a place like Yale) inevitably gets cluttered with doing things you aren’t so excited about. When it gets too cluttered your brain or your passion or your will freezes. In comes deep procrastination. The best way to thaw is to slow down, don’t do too much and reconnect with what made you passionate.
Thanks for the great blog Cal.
Definitely a good point. After returning to college, I was motivated by “I need to get straight A’s.” However I fell into deep procrastination during my second semester as I began to question why exactly I was motivated in the first place. It wasn’t until my fourth semester back that I really began to explore alternative sources of motivation. I’m not exactly sure what clicked for me, but I know that not celebrating every time I got an A on an assignment definitely helped me not to be complacent and helped me sustain momentum through the final month of the semester (when my grades were determined for the most part).
Take your time : )
Couldn’t have said it any better myself.
I experienced deep procrastination throughout my undergraduate studies and even saw a counselor to understand my peculiar behavior. My first semester, I made As and A-‘s even through my papers were late, and I was sometimes late to class. As I got older, I decided that I didn’t care if my papers were late, and felt complacent with the 1/3 grade penalty, because I was still averaging an A- in most classes. However, deep procrastination was the worst my junior year, when I was taking a graduate class that I really disliked, in addition to introductory classes in my major (which I also disliked). I decided not to submit any of my assignments for the grad class and took the “Incomplete” grade. I took a full year (until my senior year) to submit all my assignments and still got a B in the class. In this class, we had to write weekly essays about the reading. The essays I did submit earned essays, but I just couldn’t be bothered to write them every week. I stopped caring if I got an A or not because there were a lot of personal changes going on, and coursework ceased to matter. Now that I’m going back to grad school, I have a better understanding of what happened in undergrad and I am committed to keeping myself motivated. Thanks!
I’m in a very similar boat here. I was at the top of my class senior year of high school, but I had a rough last two years which left me quite burnt out. I tried to regain my bearings and motivation during the summer between HS and college, and I thought I succeeded. Unfortunately, I didn’t, and I soon found myself at a lack of motivation to do anything at all. Personal stresses coupled with the nauseatingly competitive nature of the school left me almost paralyzed. Although my first semester went rather well (one B+ was my lowest) I ended my spring semester with the lowest grades I have ever seen on a transcript. I am very disappointed, but I am much more frustrated. Any tips on how to really unwind and gear up for the next semester? I really want to be able to enjoy school again.
How will you known if you are struggling with a deep procrastination and what is the different from the normal procrastination? I know that I am a procrastinator. I don’t like working ahead of time since I expect more from myself if I work ahead. I usually cram my papers and still get a good grade that’s why I like it.
Normal procrastination means you wait until the last minute to complete your work. Deep procrastinators will often blow past the deadline, and then, when given an extension, blow past that deadline to. In other words, they develop in inability to do the work at all.
I relate to this SO MUCH. Particularly Sadia @28. I too got great results in my first two semesters, especially considering I copped minor late penalties on most assignments and left far too little time for exam study. Afterwards, though, I let deadlines sail past thinking I would one day, very soon, knuckle down and get everything done. Needless to say this never happened, and now I’ve failed two semesters in a row due to not handing in work. The frustrating part is I had actually mastered most of the material in the course of researching for essays and so forth, but never actually completed anything! I don’t know what the answer is but I hope I can find this elusive propulsion soon…
I’d love to hear from any students who have been through this and made it successfully out the other side – I’m bookmarking this page so I can come back during future stud…procrastination sessions
My History essay is overdue by two weeks, and I’m still not done with it. My PoliSci essay is over by a month and I’m just about to finish it. My Philosophy essay is a week overdue and I’m barely getting started. I really got to fall in love with my class, but could my source of procrastination come from the fact that I’m taking 18 credit hours and letting it all pile up, thus diminishing motivation?
I developed this sometime in college but managed to push on through to graduate law school (which I hated). Then I got stuck on the bar exam for 7 years. Even now I still take and retake the exam, having tried different courses, tutors, computer programs, supplements, hypnosis, and just plain taking time off from even seeking work to just focus on the test. Each time, I sit down and cannot concentrate for longer than 10 or 15 minutes. If I am working on the computer (some of my study materials are on my computer or online) I spend hours surfing the internet. I installed productivity browser software to try and force myself off the sites where I waste the most time. I still find myself browsing the internet, looking at sites I haven’t blocked or using another browser altogether. Although I don’t freeze up at the test and always manage to finish, I keep failing the test over and over again. I’m becoming desperate because I haven’t worked in a long while and I haven’t been able to really get any career started because I have gotten so hung up on this exam. I know you don’t usually talk to people like me, but I wonder if you have any suggestions for me.
Isn’t deep procrastination just exactly the same as a burnout? Then why don’t just call it a burnout?
I believe such procrastination are mostly caused by a sense of being lost and insecure, not knowing what the future holds and even what you want in the future, not being sure whether your current works are worthwhile at all. Thus the loss of motivation. Adjustment to reality is key. You have to identify and, as Cal said, CHOOSE what you INDEED CAN DO under current situations, not dreaming about things unreachable, then buckle down and do it, hard and well. Dragging feet and linger over over some unrealistic past dreams won’t lead you anywhere. They are dead and one has to live in the reality.
I believe such procrastination are mostly caused by a sense of being lost and insecure, not knowing what the future holds and even what you want in the future, not being sure whether your current works are worthwhile at all. Thus the loss of motivation. Adjustment to reality is key. You have to identify and, as Cal said, CHOOSE what you INDEED CAN DO under current situations, not dreaming about things unreachable, then buckle down and do it, hard and well. Dragging feet and linger over over some unrealistic past dreams won’t lead you anywhere. They are dead and one has to live in and thrive under the reality.
I am currently a student, and I noticed a decreased drive in doing difficult work my first year in college. I procrastinated more than I ever did. In high school I was able to find motivation to do well in grades alone. However, this wore off in college, and coupled with an increased work load made it easy to fall behind my first year in college. Similar to what you recommended to the sophomore student, I also took a semester off. I spent my time off working in a call center, where I developed a newfound motivation to try harder in school. I am on my second year now, and I am doing much better with doing stuff on a reasonable time frame.
Hi, Cal, I’ve left comments in a few of your posts from your student years and never got a reply or insight from you. I guess you’re really busy and all.
I just wanted to say, this is exactly what I am going through! As usual, I feel relieved knowing I’m not the only one who is going through this. I think I understand that I am not facing a mental condition but rather deep procrastination. I was quite worried that it was the former and that I should get help from professionals. As I’m writing this right now, I’m blowing an extended deadline and have not even start writing the essay. Still no sense of urgency from the last time I asked for your help. Don’t think I can afford to take a semester off because I only have 1 semester left till graduation. However, because of my attitude, I have to extend a semester because I did not clear enough credits to graduate with my coursemates. It kinda sucks, but I’m resigned to it because I know I brought this upon myself.
I will try and ask myself the questions you posted in answers for deep procrastination and just hope it works. Really just gotta hope hard. I hope this works.
Thanks for your post, Cal!
I really liked this post. I can defintly relate because I feel like I am in this exact situation, and have been for quite some time. I want to get out of it, but sometimes its hard. I dont find myself letting assignments slip too far from my reach, cause that would make me crazy, but I have been sluggish with turning in assignments and showing up for some of my classes. It is difficult, but I am working on it, and this post helped me understand!
I’ve found that this is entirely true – there is a gap between i /have/ to do this and i /want/ to do this, and it is a hard place to be. Coming out on the other side – doing this because you want to do it- however, is something that will change the way you do school, the way you learn, and the way you see yourself. It will take time, but taking that time can make all the difference when push comes to shove or, you know. When it comes time to graduate.
Thank you so much for having this here for us to read. Starting my first semester of college I was very excited to get things going. I had been very determined throughout my life to do and be something great but I am having a hard time realizing that to do so I have to do what you said, work hard to do something well. Thank you Cal for helping motivate myself to do such things. Just one question, does procrastination ever end or stop?
1. You will almost always be less stressed than everyone else. How? You know the 80/20 rule, right? Well, 80% of your stress will come from 20% of the actual time you spend doing what you should be doing. Because you spent the other 80% of your time avoiding it, but in an actively thoughtful manner.
Deep procrastination, at least for me, seems to be a threat response. People talk a lot about the fight or flight response. There is a third response- Freeze. This response, as someone has already noted, seems to creep in when we face uncertainty. If we do not have structure in our lives, or are juggling way too much, even then the same deer in the headlights response my raise its head. Metaphorically speaking, it feels like something broke inside me, like I am staring at an abiss. I hope that maybe some introspection will help.
Procrastination is definitely something I have continued to struggle with throughout college and I honestly wonder if it’ll ever go away. I agree that there comes a point when you have to reflect on why you are doing what you are doing and what your time and effort will result in. Technology has given everyone an easy excuse to waste time or push things to the last second and it is our attitude that must be corrected. We have to find our motivator, whether it is money, family, helping others, etc. college is a time to explore that question and I think that one of the greatest things school will teach us is how to prioritize and organize our life and then how to do hard, boring, difficult things to discipline yourself. To be able to drive yourself and do quality work because your work (on different levels) represents yourself